Let's put a trigger warning for rape on this one
I shouldn’t be making this post, the chances of me not
regretting it in the morning is slim to non-existent – but I’m making it
because I’m cresting a vast wave of rage that needs venting as a way to delay/help/avert/deal
with the brain crash that is looming in my thoughts right now. I’ve also had a
couple of drinks, yes it’s before 1:00pm, yes I know that’s not good. No, it’s
not a great coping mechanism. I thought I was doing well, it has been so long
since a major incident – not every day was perfect, but I had a handle on it
and then one thing and all the flimsy walls come down.
There has been a few trainwrecks of articles about Shia
LaBeouf and being raped during the performance art piece he did and my gods
has the response been pretty terrible and has danced on my triggers and bad
memories to put me in a special kind of hell.
There has been a lot of the really toxic shit - I think a
special prize goes to the “he’s a grown-ass man, how can he be raped!?”
comments because, yeah, thanks for that. Let me go back in time and see if
yelling “I’m a grown-ass man” makes me magically unrapeable. But bonus points
for the “a man can’t be hard during rape” from people who apparently do not
have penises.
There’s also a huge number of people – people who just last week were saying that this line of reasoning was utter bullshit that should be called out and shamed – are questioning whether Shia resisted enough/appropriately/whatever for it to be “really rape”. Normally I know the places and people to avoid during shit like this but turns out a lot of arseholes can flip their script awfully quickly.