I’m breaking my annoying silence (so much to do, so
little time) because something has annoyed me. Actually it’s a string of people
annoying me the same way; that perennial call that we need to be nicer to
bigoted straight people who do and say bigoted things and really aren’t we
great big meanies for daring to judge people for using slurs or avoiding or
telling off these bigots when they show their bigoted arses in all their
scabby, bigoted glory.
Above all, I’m tired of the dreaded “teachable moment.” I’m tired of when yet another person decides to yell “f@ggot” in whatever media is open to them, it’s demanded that we nicely teach the bigot why that’s not a nice thing to do. I’m tired of being expected to look on a long screed on why I don’t deserve the same rights as anyone else as some kind of opportunity to educate rather than the vicious attack it is. I’m tired of seeing yet another attack against us and being expected to be SYMPATHETIC to the bigot who just trampled all over us.
Because of fucking TEACHABLE MOMENTS.
So let’s talk teachable moments. Mainly let’s talk about how I have absolutely no inclination to take advantage of “teachable moments” provided every time some straight person marauds around with little or no regard for us YET AGAIN.
That’s not to say I don’t want straight people to LEARN a
whole lot of things. But teaching can’t happen without willingness to learn –
and if there is a willingness to learn then I and a gazillion other LGBTQ
people out there have written blogs, books, articles, videos and just about
every damn resource possible for straight people to ACTUALLY want to learn.
They don’t need “teachable moments”, they need to respect us enough to put some
damn effort in.
The problem is not, as the apologist always cry whenever
a bigot does anything, IGNORANCE; the problem is RESPECT
It is not having RESPECT enough for us to care whether
their words and actions hurt us
It is not having RESPECT enough for us to consider the
consequences of what they do or say
It is not having RESPECT enough to learn about us before
presuming to insert themselves in our lives and our issues.
It is not having RESPECT enough to recognise that we are
the experts in our own lives and when we say something is so, then is it so.
Because of this, the only “teachable moments” I want to
have with straight people are:
1) Don’t
say/do bigoted, dehumanising and disrespectful things
2) Don’t
involve themselves in or claim opinions on or cast judgement on community
issues that have absolutely nothing to do with them.
That’s it. Because those are basic milestones of respect:
not doing harmful things and not arrogantly and paternalistically assuming
expertise in someone else’s life. And I’ve
found the most simple “teachable moments” for his is to either shun
transgressors or make your anger known in most clear and adamant terms.
Would I like straight people to learn more than these
basic lessons? Sure, but I don’t need them to learn more than that and, before
they can learn more than that, they need to learn that basic lesson of respect.
Part of which will be seeking out the information WE HAVE ALREADY PROVIDED
rather than blundering around like a drunken hammer-thrower then demanding the
people they’ve knocked to the floor explain why they’re bruised.
Is this harsh of me? Maybe it is (though I disagree). But
for the sake of my own damn humanity it has to be like this. It is dehumanising
and destructive to demand we TEACH straight people that we’re actually people
deserving of respect. It is destructive to us to accept that our existence as
equal beings is something that needs to be TAUGHT or as some kind of esoteric
knowledge we can’t expect people to know!
We’re a community who loses a horrendous number of our
fellows to suicide every year. We’re a community where self-worth is a battle
ground. We’re a community that takes terrible losses because so many of us don’t
think they deserve to live or deserve to be safe or deserve to be happy. We
CANNOT concede this ground. We cannot accept a toxic meme that makes our
humanity such a monumental lesson to learn. At no time, in no way can we allow
abusing us to be looked at as understandable, in no way can we allow treating
us as equals be considered some kind of advanced achievement. We’re better than
that, we deserve better than that and all of us – LGBTQ as well as cis and
straight – need to believe that.
